Returning to Craziness

Once there was life,
when I acted crazily,
making every thing I learn,
as an enjoyable experience,
careless about people

but then I started taking people's word's
more than usual,
into head's and heart,
changing myself more than I should,
and I started living perfect life,
with good circle, success, good friends,
but slowly it becomes even cold than before,
the normal perfection becomes suffocating,
and life seems like lifeless,

I then returned to the life of madman,
as I rightly am,
and increased my craziness once again,
but this time, with 2 differences,
one that I stopped caring ,
about other's speculation,
and that I created a hole,
large enough, that I can move,
in and out whenever I wish,

with the return of craziness,
returned life full of intensity,
and may be god, and my heart,
gives me a big smile,
saying,
welcome back! :)


Note : There is difference between senseless act's interfering in other's life over a limit intuitively, and intense craziness which is about deep involvement and intensity.
http://blog.ishafoundation.org/sadhguru/masters-words/how-to-overcome-fear/
http://blog.ishafoundation.org/sadhguru/masters-words/living-free-of-comparison/