Why do I forget you?

O my secret lover,
my heart, my life,
why do I forget you?

you made my life,
what it is,
still why do I forget you?

I owe you everything,
more than anything,
you win my heart everytime,
why do I break it?

At times, I am completely soaked in you,
filled with distaste, uncolored, in thy devotion,
but just out of compassion,
I nurtured the seed of passion for research and organizational skills,
but then as time flows,
why do I forget my intentions?
why do the plays  become a compulsions?
Remind me always O dear,
that colors and tastes of this world are little dear,
than you, O dear, always,
O my secret lover,
Keep me colorless and tasteless inside,
so that I can love you always,

O my secret lover,
my heart, my life,
why do I forget you?