Present snapshot of  life Journey

It has been about 150 days of me preparing for gate(competitive exam), and in this small gap of life, i have learned a lot.


My first bitter experience was meeting terrorized faces of students who were appearing for gate. Not a single face was gleaming to learn. Obviously when competition is such, this is bound to happen. Still I managed to somehow make myself and others happy by showing "look! it ain't so sad! it is like game!"

Almost every successful person has to agree, if they had been so worried, they couldn't build up such empires.


1st tip one must learn in life, is to be non competitively progressive. In a sense, not just going with winds, but with self judgment. There is another angle to why competition is inhibitor in progress.
Suppose you got fired up by failiures in life for success, then when you prepare, instead of focussing on learning, you will focus on worries. Worries and bubble repute, bubble happiness are harvest of crop named competition. Still it is better to be a bit competitive than to be lazy.

Challenges of life
2nd thing is be in control, the moment you focus on controlling thoughts, 500 more thoughts start comming. Moment you promise not to watch porn, you find 500 reason to watch it more. Why does it happen?

I tried to investigate in this analogy and found out very simple trick to control thoughts. Just become careless about too many extra worries and just concentrate.
Life is not just about race, of course there are issues of survival, but it is about developing habbit of deep concentration. with objectivity(distancing)

It is more of a context free habit. Even though I leave studies, and join theatrics or xyz, the art of concentration will make things easy and effective. 

What the heck is this concentration?
It is just focussing totally on 1 thing totally. Like when you play game, or draw a painting, time seems to pass too fast. That  is a parameter to judge conc. All altu faltu thoughts seems to disappear.

At some point if you are highly meditative in work, and carefully observe, you will see many hidden aspects of life unconsciously affecting you. Like frequency of thoughts.

Like If I play flute, my concentration is on subtle aspects of harmony, so frequency of thoughts get less commingling into one big harmony.
But while giving exam, I need tool called high frequency thought, so I concentrate holding my breath to just be fast,observant.
So according to life situation I switch from one state to another.

But fickle mind may use this text to say "I can watch porn with conc" but there is huge difference. Fickleness lies in seeking pseudo sensory(lower) pleasure out of excuse of concentration. Destructively Intelligent minds are more prone to this habit of self obsessive, interpretation. Concentration is conscious self growth seeking harmonious process. Its focus is not on senses but on meditativeness. It doesn't have to cross lines rather its strength lies in its varagi(colourless) nature. And after all remember "You can't fool yourself" 

The more you come out of temptation, having control of thoughts, consciously finding beautiful expressions by concentration, better,joyful is your life.

After all who cares too much about sucess, take it like game, in this world all is mixed, big fish eats small fish, tom runs after jerry, but if you just live in moment, consciously allowing yourself to focus on now, without thinking or being less emotionally sensitive, life is quite awesome. Problem is that we project life as just a bunch of things which are more outward, but the more inward and distortionless(bereft of distortions brought by external focus) does the system becomes, the more joyful and calmly intense life is.But Accept the fact, limits are must on external levels, only inner and subtler concentration can have no limits.


Would you like race going on 7 days, or cricket match 7 days long? No! But there are great people who play this race of life 24x7 happily like Discovery channel people or artists or entrepreneurs or yogis, just because they have learned this art of inner concentration adjusted to external limits, by doing work meditatively! Their joy is clear from their gleaming faces! I am not talking about astha channel! I am talking of Discovery channel of another kind, of interiorised objective focus, where there are no bars on limit.

Don't run after pleasure in world, make every task so intense that you don't have to beg or knell down for such lesser forms. Try to simplify life, it will always pay! and try to avoid influences of others, including me, after all it is your life!

Disclamer : The more you find words to discribe things, the more it looses its essence, and higher are chances of mis-interpretation, yet wise one will pick up true diamond out of pseudo shining glasses.

Being truthful to myself

Even though I be successful, 
I don't know how it will be in panorama of universe,

Though I am healthy,
I know nature can bend and knell me,

Even though I live stable life,
I know I am still touched by dualistic phenomenon of pleasure and pain,

I doubt over universal right or wrong,
because ultimately when I look back,
I find to see right and wrong only in human limited perspective plane,
I still don't know anything,

But when in deep silence,
After intense concentration,
When i sit still,
I loose almost everything for moments,
but still I come back,
and go ahead again,

back and forth,
forth and back,
relative success has kissed me,
so many times, 
that it has become boring show,
Still I go ahead for success,
not for my sake,
but for some higher goodwill,

success is not matter,
what matters is it is like Marigold round,
one after another, cycles which never end!

I have lost so many times in my inner battle,
still i rise back to carry on life,

But I know,
someday all has to end,
thats for sure,
for a fresh start again,
because all which starts,
must end,
only unborn can be deathless.

Approach Truth Straight into eye

Life, the more I am living it, the more It seems like self hypnosis. No matter how strong we mentally or physically are, existentially we are more or less like every other life form on planet. in terms of taking advantage of growth opportunity, vulnerability to environment,etc.

Humans have thoughts and emotions, which are above survivalistic skills, which marks difference. Even in humans there are so many differences.No one wants to die when happy, and still not want to live at some point of time frustratedIf we just tear away(atleast mentally) every religious or spiritual book, still life is such an undoubted mystery.Just tear it of interally, to breath in fresh air, and you will all coming out.

I have learned very hard way out is that, NO WORK in this world is more important than growing yourself. You want to help? It will be naturally done, even if you stay a beggar. Real growth has to be inclusive! means it will swipe its essense to people.

Success is not for getting distaste
I met a person gotten into 6th in Gate. But when he comes in class is either moaning or self boasting or scolding, so nothing is real parameter of success except your self growth in life. death is certain be he multibillioniare or footPather.  I don't say don't be anything, but whatever small or middle or big, doesnt matter what you become in socially acceptable levels, you will be fantastic person, as long as you are rooted closer and closer to this profound truth, and I am sure I don't know why but great good world needs will be natural and fulfilled just by sheer willingness and little effort of such people.

De-addiction must! 
It is hard to hear, but the more we addict ourselves to hypnotic music, chaotic world, pampering friends and loved ones, you will not feel the profoundness of the existence. I am not talking about even realization. But today I was sitting on swing perfect still for about 15 min and suddenly it felt like when the chambers of chaotic nature are closed, chamber of sublime profoundness opens. For those who say they never change, it is not so, a persons nature does change, internally definitely.But yes, nature is very careful about its variability to sustain and hence some of our characteristic habits, external in nature more or less doesn't change much, and hence a must never be parameter to judge.

Liking is a loose word
Suppose you are born in a family of cat, you whole life, your pysical preference everything will change. Ok assume

I challege scientists to conduct this experiment

Take a person, make him paralyse and use his message signals to make him move, from some lower age.
create a virtual world and a virtual body of cat which moves in this space. where it starts feeling, he is like a cat,
leave no trace that he is not a cat,
and soon you will find him loving cats,
his whole life will be to find beautiful eyes of her lover cat,
in his own beautiful eyes he will wish to cry meoaw after regaining human conciseness,

Only difference will be that it may be an evolved cat. Intelligent and with deeper emotions,
body, all different.If in such virtual world, any advertisements were to appeal us, it would be cat in bikini, or bareback male cats and all stupid advertisers would fool us in terrible ways. Strange!!!

Such is with us, living in particular regions, we start having differences, on surface,
but in this pseudo virtual world, our essence is not fixed onto a body.
Human can create virtual world, but virtual mind, in its essence is difficult, decision making . .  from scratch and not from biological imitation or exploitation, feeling and responding,
but someday(nearly impossible) if it does, than he must have evolved to creater himself. But you know the codeword of life can be cracked just by disconnecting sense distortions initally, than why to beat the bush around?


Money is powerful,no doubt, mind,etc all things are powerful, but they are powerless in front of cycles of birth and death. or at least fear of death. All are powerless in front of sheer power of vast nothingness of existence.(different from loneliness, loneliness is feeling of seclusion, but this vast nothingness of uncluttered inclusion at an indescribable level)

So you want to know what life is?
No one can know it, even when a man jumps from top of grand canyon valley to bottem, maybe in middle he may know what life is, but it need not be so risky, it has to be simple and universal in its very nature.

Can we rely on Media, which is master in manipulating our minds?
Can we rely on simply Thoughts, which bring about so much confusion?
Can we rely on simply emotions, which makes us feel so handcuffed by its power.
Can we rely on simply intelligence or senses, no way, it is just collection of data born inference, senses bieng its gates,

Suggestion
My humble suggestion, be a bit cold or insensitive to suggestion of people around, use your brain and common sense, and in heart of heart you know what to do.
Some suggestions are ok, but avoid blasts of them, be it friends or family or you yourself. it is like spum or rexine, if you wet it in ink, it won't get color easily, but you wet it long enough, it will all contain ink. Be like discovery channel which is busy discovering, than aastha or god tv giving suggestions to people. Obviously society is ok, like other animals we have a bit stricter norm but just it is needed for a man gifted with piercing brainy and emotional hights , but still norms are for running society well, but is society everything? How boring is life then? and if so, answer my question : Can you deny the above possibility as shown in inception of article?


Only answer comes out quite naturally is by just sheer loosing your self concern and just for some moments, for at least few moments be more than civilized animals, observe subtle things in and around.