Mind Trap

Choice, the most powerful tool,

a human being has, 

Choosing mind over life, is the mistake I made,

and the time has come to correct it,

Mind is not just a word, but it has many layers,

But all shying away from loosening the grip,

A machine running forever, 

knowing not how to stop,

burning itself away recklessly, 

the mind is that machine,

creating miracles but trapping itself out,

the grip over it loosening out,

the smarter I become, the more difficult it is , 

to get rid of insane bombarding of thoughts, 

and supreme divergence of attention,

the restlessness of the mind getting out of control,

almost like a car without breaks, 

start to think in one flow,
it pulls you somewhere else,
it learns to self reward its behavior
and avoid high speed highway of thoughts,
because once it goes beyond a pitch,
it becomes uncontrollable
and even sleep doesn't help,
therefore it stays in safer zones,
never testing its best limits,

I know I need to give it a break,

but the fear of loosing it stops me from putting breaks when needed,

the fear of losing the ability gained, 

the fear of being dumb if brakes are put,

what if car never starts again once the breaks are put ? 

but anyways death is certain,
and anyways the clarity wont come unless the breaks are put,
so why keep avoiding this snoozing ?

One of the choices is, to get it engaged in physical pleasures,

fuck the world and just ease it out, live a simple life,

but the mind will lost of its abilities, never able to take up difficult challenges,

weak and timid will it stand,

unable to bear the practical pressures,

it will become hobo,

Other choice is to get rid of emotions,

become a robot, and care not of anything else,

but the loss of sensitivity will restrict the inference,

but the lifelessness of thoughts will itch you,

and the inability of grip over thoughts will still be there,

the mind will become maniac, which needs some logical food,

all the time,

But there is another choice, 

which has risks, 

but worth it,

It is to snooze the brain elements for some time,

Somewhere we all know, than unless the cat comes out of box,

it can never see the full picture, and still it chooses to stay in box,

you can't expect to become everything unless you break the box of your something,

the cage of identity has to be foregone, for the true magic of experience to happen,

fear of loosing mind, is also stopping you from using it totally,

it is blurring the clarity by adding too many ripples in water,

The mind is not just the thoughts you are conscious of,

it also has endless associations trained by memory surrounding you in form of unconscious processes,

it also has the strong sense of identity, an acquired flavor of logic,

it also has centers of emotional  and hormonal responses, 

abilities to cognize,

but we have a choice of becoming a slave of this wonderful tool,

or rise above it, to use it when required, and be free rest of the times,

cause the mind will always be tensed and desperate,

never finding its finer expression,

it will always keep gobbling between thoughts here and there,

unless, it is rested well, snoozed off when required, 

untill the mind is greater than life,

the mind will never be life,

but when life becomes greater than mind in priority,

a new ease and clarity emerges,
this is not about being impractical,
it is about being able to consciously relax to the best,
to be able to participate in the game totally