Sunday, October 27, 2013

Normal and GameChangers



What should be our goal in life?
If you ask me, there is no definite answer to this question, but one thing is clear, it must be worth striving for  . .
But I looked at lives of people around me, passing through various phases of life, and observed their patterns of living. I tried to seep into various lives to decide on what to go for.

I have seen, for at least 99% of population, life is like a routine, to be living again and again. A scientist becomes obsessed with his research papers, and how to survive securely in the race of papers, an artist becomes obsessed with his variation of artwork, worrying about survival,earning, exhibitions, etc. The worse are the secure job kind of people, who never dare to do something different, dare to face some disturbances in life.  the addicted, the pot diggers, etc are actually consequences of this deep inner conflict, otherwise why would you need some break, some addiction, if your pursuit itself is so much curious and fundamental thing.

In my life the worst experience in life was of company, better than that is IISc, more better my experiences with music, video editing, but the best was when I question the very fundamentals be it by science or by arts or simply deep observation in silence before a storm .

 99% population strives for survivalist dominance and security, they only care about opinions, secure life, dominance in terms of money and control in terms of power,  but these are all virtual situations created by human beings.
So because of this kind of approach about stability, power, they shrink their level of perception. There is a great story about one of the student of  J.C. Bose(father of wireless communication, unison theory,plant researcher) because he thought, I got to earn money, I got to become a famous buisnessmen because he is very creative. but JC Bose , asked him after 2 years, how he was feeling, he told, "I feels terrible" and rightly so, because when you live upto someone's expectation, and leave something which you value, you suffer.

It is only <1% population, which dares to keep aside these issues, and give their lives away for answer of fundamental questions like time, life, death, space, perceptions, the very process of things happening. These people strive for fundamental dominance structure. To have a better perception and experience of life. Albert Einstein was one of them, he tried to address fundamental question, Like him, many impressionist artists, social scientists like Jean Piaget, Jiddu Krishnamurthy,etc tried to address it,Indian music, dance, various forms of martial arts, economists like John Nash and game theory, etc everything has  been specifically been designed to enhance level of perception of life, by specific ways, but poor us, we make ourselves so much of a closed book possibility.

Problem is, we think like 99% that survivalistic dominance is actual way, blindly living in situations. Very few try to give a way to inquisitive side, a fundamental side of human, which tries to answer simple but profound questions which have nothing to do with survival, (which even dog's and cat's can do) but it has everything to do with how deeply you are percieving things, trying to dig further at more subtler question.

This is why we love physics initially, because it tries to shake and work at fundamentals, this is why artists love gestalt principles, because they shake the fundamentals of perception and are not about 200$ loss or profit or getting fired. Their life is not that Messed up in survival. . . . But then, our motivation is influenced by how you are appreciated by someone, how society accepts you and all that. . . .

Don't fall in this trap, because in this short life, it is important to work for something, worth striving not for xyz, but for you common sensically. . . :)


Saturday, October 5, 2013

Bieng Ordinary

Scent of Life,
is hidden in flower of ordinary,
Untouched by ashes,
is none,
and it is that which,
brings life,
on inception of each step,
do we go through the torments,
brought by it,
and it is how you handle them,
decides who you are,
Everyone is addicted to something,
because of this,
you cannot control ,
just handle it well,

but you have to go through it for sure,
if you want to grow,
You have to go through,
bitterness,
 and pleasure to suppress that bitterness,
to move on,
people say this is bad, that is bad,
but nothing is bad, it is how far you go,
to deal with this bitterness,
determines you,
Some find a beautiful expression,
in music,
some find expression in wine,
some in something else,
every choice  comes with its pros and cons,
some in something else,
but by itself,
life comprises of all forms,
the bitter, the sweet, the vigor,
the one who sees all as part of life,
understands, practically everything,
working without prejudice,
just practical, just life :)


Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Shyama

O Shyama,
My breath, My life, My love,
I have fooled around a lot already,
how much more?

I will die, if you delay,
one more second,
for you know, my life,
is empty plastic life without you,
all success, but no life without you shyama,

I tried to search you in symphony of music,
but soon I found, that even most alluring music,
is empty without thy presence o my love

I tried to search you in infintude of success,intellect,
but soon found fooled and tricked by plasticy honors,
which shed away when ticking times come,

I tried to search you in goodness, in family,
but soon found, how it is yet another trick,
in the name of sweetness, it silently grabs you,
and makes you like a dog, which sniffs the boundries,
and stays in it, never dares to explore beyond,

I tried to search you in service,
but none did serve without you,

In end, I sat alone, bewildered, despaired,
and suddenly, the silence broke,
by the impulsive rush of thy ever-changing colors,
by the impulsive rush of thy all encompassing heart,
by the rush of silence hidden in thy humungous storms
 and heart stopping storms behind silence,

In every movie I watched,
in every romantic background tune,
my heart remembered and heart whispered,
shyama shyama,

In every success, I cheered,
with none other,
than you O shyama,
all I ever did is always for you,
O shyama,

In every broken times,
when life seemed lifeless,
you took my hands,
and thy heart stealing whisper,
pushed me back to life,

Every wicked act,kind act,
Every mistake, every planning,
intimate act,smart act,
almost everything reminds me of thy presence,
I am so much into you, Shyama,
this fire has spread everywhere,
burning away everything,

From lowest to highest rungs of women,
behind the pin drop silence, behind the thunder strorms,
it is you who dance endlessly in my heart,
in every multiplicity of forms,,
endlessly changing yet unchanging,
are you O Shyama
 various masks have you taken, teasing me,
but now no more,
this longing has seeped deeper,
in my innermost corner,
now this intensity has surpassed hide and seeks,
only by thyself,thy intimicy in thy formless form i seek, I wish to romance endlessly, no more masks,
for I see everything in you, and you in everything,
I am willing to be completely totally intensely insanely mad into you,
 more insane than I ever was, pushing aside scafolding of sanity,
O Shyama

I saw you dancing on dead,
and rejoicing on the alive,
laughing wickedly on falls,
and smiling tenderly on rises,
O shyama, shyama,

this is not just another ritual,
this is not just another formality,
this is not just joy,entertainment,
this longing is larger than life,

Shyama, Shyama,Shyama . . .